Philippians3:10 "that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death,"
             Death is not something people are happy to do. People don't say " yeah, lets die that'll be fun!" Death is looked down upon no where you are. The truth is that nobody truly wants to die, many will say that they don't really care about their life but, most of the time when faced with death they will run from it. In this passage however, death is something that is great gain! To live is Christ and to die is truly gain. Paradise is waiting for those who are in Christ Jesus. Jesus' disciples went to their graves for Him. They died horrible and painful deaths for Jesus and trying to save those who were killing them! The question I must ask myself is, "do I really believe that what I believe is really real?" Do I really believe that Jesus came and died and rose again? Do I believe that God will save me from Hell? Can God really use me to further His kingdom? Am I willing to serve others? Am I willing to draw close to Him? To read His word and take it to heart? To forsake all the things of this world and follow Him? To take Him at His word and go into the world not knowing what will happen? To not fear death? That God is always with me? That He loves me even when things get rough? To pray to Him and know He will answer? To stand on His promises? Not giving in to despair when circumstances are grim? To rely on His strength alone? I can go on but, that's enough for now.
          Honestly, I haven't lived like I believe all the above. It's hard to live such a way as that but, I do believe God can do it! He can train me to live this way! He Can! Not me! It's Him who made the earth! It's He who made the universe! Why then can I not grasp that fact that God Can do it? I am convicted by the fact that I don't fully believe yet! I don't just let go and let God lead. I am a prideful human being and pray in all earnesty that God will change that. I pray that God will change me into the vessel He wants me to be. That is my prayer for me. How about you? I cannot make the choice for you. Nor will God force Himself upon anyone. It must be the sinner's choice to accept or reject God. I do however, pray that you all will see your need for Him. Even though you may have accepted Him, what's stopping you from going deeper? I am going deeper, I am going to search myself in order to find out what is holding me back. I want to be able to say Yes to all of those questions above!
 Praise be to God for Life and Death.