Discouragement

     Mark 10:9 "Therefore what God has joined together, let no man
separate."
     I am going to share with you all something I don't like sharing. I
want a wife. That's it plain and simple or, so it sounds. I've never had a
girlfriend before or any thing like that. I've tried and was told that I wasn't
their type. I found out later that I was told that because women often want
the bad boys. Of which I can't, because of my conscience, even try to
become. Some people that I am close with told me that there is a lady out
there for me but, this only brought me into depression because I didn't
believe it. For I have heard that so many times it got to be monotones. I then
just asked God if such a woman exists. He told me she does and I rejoiced
and since I didn't know Her name I call her Stardust. That happened when I
was 19. I am now 24 and still waiting with no prospects in sight. Know that I
am not purposely looking for her. It's just something that I am anticipating.
      However, I got discouraged at the age of 21. I knew that God said
she exists but, I got discouraged. That discouragement sent me down a
spiral that I wish that no one would ever go down. I did things I regret and
forever will regret. Yet God met me there and lifted me up from " My pit of
despair." I say "my pit" because I put myself there. I need reminding of His
promise and He gave to me in His word, though I forget where it was. It
simply said "do you not know that God is faithful?" I needed that. He made
sure I wouldn't forget those words too. Because here I am 24 and getting
discouraged again. I am hearing of people getting together and people back
home getting married. It honestly is hard to hear those things.
     However, I am not going to get discouraged because I know that it
paralyzes and stops me and anyone who gets discouraged to stop doing
the work we are called to. God gave Mark 10:9 as an encouragement.
Because from where He stands, I am already married. So this verse is my
confirmation verse and a verse to look to when this poison of
discouragement gets into me because it is only a matter of time before I it
comes again. Thank you for listening to a tired old story and I hope it helped
you some how.
      Praise God for Stardust and His words of comfort and
encouragement.

Where would I be?

    Romans 8:1 " There is therefore now no condemnation for those
who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according
to the Spirit."
   A thought I do not like to entertain is the thought of where I would be without Jesus. I don't like to think of it because of how grim it would be. Ultimately, I would be in Hell, burning forever! With no hope, love, mercy, or grace. However, on our temporal plain of existence. I could've been I murderer, taking lives from people and maybe even sending people to Hell. I could've been a thief, stealing from others and making their lives miserable. Maybe even to the point where they commit suicide. I could've been fornicator, treating women as a form of entertainment and pleasure. Having children but, leaving them fatherless. Destroying families and causing those children to do the same. Families need a father and a mother to show the children how a family should be. To be a living the example of love. I could've done so much harm in this world and laughed at it.
    However, this is not the case. God gave me a family that lives that example of what a family should be like. They showed me love at every turn and because of them I have Jesus in my life. God called me to Himself before I was born by working in my parents' lives. I praise God for my family and the example of love they have shown me.
    Now if you don't have that, don't think you are not reachable. Each of us have different backgrounds and stories and that is the beauty of it. All that we have done and went through cannot separate us from God and His love. He wants us to come to Him but, He will not force us to come. We must choose Him. If you have chosen Him, REJOICE!!! Because " There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit." Heaven has never seemed
so close.
    I will never forget the day I first believed, I was a little child and my Dad told me of the way. My Dad and Mom told all of their children of Jesus and that He is the Saviour. More importantly he told us that we are sinners and we need Jesus to be saved from Hell. Thank you Dad, I love you.
    Praise God for "all" that happens, for He is glorified through our lives.

And Even More Life

           Hello again everyone. Sam here with a little update. We did our last kid's club for a while but they will be back next year. Until then, we will be doing a few other things. One thing we will be doing is volunteer work at a hospital slash mentally disabled care facility. I honestly am very uneasy in a hospital. I just don't like them but, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. We might also be doing more out reaches in Antigua, or maybe even Guatemala City. We have a team from Florida here now and they are going to help with the hospital and even maybe the out reaches. Please pray for us all, the battle is very real here and all of us can feel it.
          Sometimes I feel like a soldier on the frontlines, It is hard to be away from family. Especially now, since I was always there during Christmas. However, God has me here for a reason and I am glad to be here.
          Praise be to God for all that He does and more.  Merry Christmas :)

                                                              Last Kid's club

                                                         Us all packed in the car!

And my first Thanksgiving away from home!