Discouragement

     Mark 10:9 "Therefore what God has joined together, let no man
separate."
     I am going to share with you all something I don't like sharing. I
want a wife. That's it plain and simple or, so it sounds. I've never had a
girlfriend before or any thing like that. I've tried and was told that I wasn't
their type. I found out later that I was told that because women often want
the bad boys. Of which I can't, because of my conscience, even try to
become. Some people that I am close with told me that there is a lady out
there for me but, this only brought me into depression because I didn't
believe it. For I have heard that so many times it got to be monotones. I then
just asked God if such a woman exists. He told me she does and I rejoiced
and since I didn't know Her name I call her Stardust. That happened when I
was 19. I am now 24 and still waiting with no prospects in sight. Know that I
am not purposely looking for her. It's just something that I am anticipating.
      However, I got discouraged at the age of 21. I knew that God said
she exists but, I got discouraged. That discouragement sent me down a
spiral that I wish that no one would ever go down. I did things I regret and
forever will regret. Yet God met me there and lifted me up from " My pit of
despair." I say "my pit" because I put myself there. I need reminding of His
promise and He gave to me in His word, though I forget where it was. It
simply said "do you not know that God is faithful?" I needed that. He made
sure I wouldn't forget those words too. Because here I am 24 and getting
discouraged again. I am hearing of people getting together and people back
home getting married. It honestly is hard to hear those things.
     However, I am not going to get discouraged because I know that it
paralyzes and stops me and anyone who gets discouraged to stop doing
the work we are called to. God gave Mark 10:9 as an encouragement.
Because from where He stands, I am already married. So this verse is my
confirmation verse and a verse to look to when this poison of
discouragement gets into me because it is only a matter of time before I it
comes again. Thank you for listening to a tired old story and I hope it helped
you some how.
      Praise God for Stardust and His words of comfort and
encouragement.